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To the Stars through Difficulties

Posted on 2015.03.20 at 07:01
Current Location: 67114
Current Music: Babymetal - BABYMETAL

I've been spending a lot of time in Kansas. But only because I live here. Of course I work from home, so its not exactly experiencing Kansan culture unless I leave the house - which I try not to do. And when I do, I'm in my car, which isn't exactly a cultural experience either. I get most of my news from London, England and East Texas, which is rarely applicable here. Also? Twenty-fifteen hasn't exactly been a stellar blogging year. There are numerous, likely interconnected reasons for this.

Living in the moment is something at which I've never been very successful - until recently. On a whim (and with motivational backing) I decided to give it a try. Doing so, it would appear has been a fascinating blend of joy and non-attachment, or alternately joy and non-attachment masquerading as a trap and snare, wherein I discover everything I thought I wasn't, I might actually be. Funny how practical application has a way of deobfuscating the theoretical - and I'm not the only one who has experienced this phenomenon. Like I said, fascinating.

Blogging thoughts, trajectories, theories, and philosophies - while not necessarily antithetical to living in the moment - certainly seems to be challenging me, and while I'm always up for a challenge, I'm not always comfortable with how it is going to manifest itself. Or like I quipped several weeks back how I knew I was in another phase of personal growth, "I'm operating outside my comfort zone." That one is usually easy to spot, yet in recent months I've grown far more comfortable wearing it atop my skin.

Interacting with those a generation younger than myself has been a refreshing change. I see much zen in myself. Much aplomb. I remember being zealously idealistic. What I have retained from that time is the drive to apply what I have since learned; a repeatable process in which to perpetuate those ideals - without freaking out over every other little thing which may at first appear incongruent.

After years of theorizing, I am enjoying testing the outcomes in the real world. I'd forgotten the taste of the world on my lips.

Comments:


suzanne1945
suzanne1945 at 2015-03-20 14:11 (UTC) (Link)
You go, guy! Now you get a glimpse of my generation--60s and 70s. You know, things like "Be here now" and "Are You Experienced" (Hendrix). What a fun phase of development.
ehowton
ehowton at 2015-03-20 23:24 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you for your support.
Michelle1963
michelle1963 at 2015-03-21 14:01 (UTC) (Link)
The thing I am finding in interacting with the 20 and 30 somethings is that I am able to appreciate their idealism even while enjoying the fact that through experience mine has been tempered. I have the long view. It makes me wonder about the perspective I will gain in the next 20 - 30 years. Rather beautiful really.
ehowton
ehowton at 2015-03-21 20:06 (UTC) (Link)
I like not being that young anymore.
Michelle1963
michelle1963 at 2015-03-21 14:08 (UTC) (Link)
I have been operating outside my comfort zone for the last 4.5 years more or less. Part of it was thrust upon me by external circumstances, and part of it self-inflicted through the desire to test theories. All of it has been illuminating. I have learned much. And yet, part of what I have learned is how much I still don't know.
Samantha
thesweetestnote at 2016-03-21 14:17 (UTC) (Link)
Your post made me think about my own, living in the moment way of life. Being one who is ruled by her heart I just go where the road goes - paying little attention, if any, to the myriad of signs that warn or otherwise try to impede my momentum. I have found that veering off the road when it becomes mundane and hurling off that proverbial cliff is not only terrifying but pretty damn exciting. Especially when all you have to rely on is past experience and really no time to prepare, plan or save for any kind of expectancies. Cause really at the end of any road is yourself. Whether bloody broken and brusied or fully intact and just fine, you pushed your personal limits and grew as a human being. And your soul thanks you. :)
ehowton
ehowton at 2016-03-21 17:06 (UTC) (Link)
To those of us who don't mind the growth process! (There are those who believe unless you've arrived fully intact and unchanged, you've lost).
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