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Posted on 2007.12.19 at 12:33
Current Location: 75070
Current Music: Tyler - The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift

When every day feels like Friday, the toll to one's body adds up. Going through the motions when there are no motions to recite becomes mind-numbing. The minutes tick past, unnoticed. Something jars me back but there is nothing but silence around me. An errant thought, perhaps, slipping past my subconscious mind? A look around and nothing has changed. Just the passing of time. How much time has passed? Time is irrelevant.

Aching for my laserdiscs, I instead stay up late watching entire movies in segmented parts on YouTube. All the reasons for having purchased laserdiscs in the first place mock me as I sit at the computer screen watching a 320x240 pixelized rendition of poor sound and video. What pride that leeches away from me I attempt to restore with wine. Its a poor substitute.

While most of what I know comes to a grinding halt for the holidays and those who do what they do during this awkward juxtaposition of false introspection and commercialization, I become detached, removed. Even moreso than normal. For one who's already accused of being an emotionless robot these aspects are magnified to the point of distortion. My impassiveness is my trademark; stolid in my dealings. Those who attempt to sway me with their joviality are the ones who end up getting hurt the most. Not because I lash out, due rather to my inability to be persuaded.

I will seek solace down all the familiar avenues, but my contemporaries will have also disappeared, having been sucked into the almost inescapable vortex of holiday cheer. In an attempt to mollify those who may be taken aback by my ingenuousness, understand this: In no way whatsoever is this post a cry for help. On the contrary, my introversion requires this time for renewal after languishing during the end of the past year. I celebrate my aversion to mobs of ambulatory meat to the same degree you people embrace it and I gain strength during this period of exile.


galinda822 at 2007-12-19 20:05 (UTC) (Link)
Here's to recharging your batteries!

I completed all my shopping prior to my visit with you for the sole purpose of not having to go anywhere near a store the whole month of December. Success!!

I will be spending Christmas with the family...Sunday with mother and Christmas Eve with dad. But every year it becomes more and more of a hassle as someone's feelings always get hurt because of some imagined slight! ***sigh***

Thankfully I will be spending Christmas day at home, by myself, laying on the sofa and watching movies all day!

galinda822 at 2007-12-19 20:07 (UTC) (Link)
The only thing that would make Christmas day better would be having someone to lay around with! ;)
Tomas Gallucci
schpydurx at 2007-12-19 20:06 (UTC) (Link)
time3 at 2007-12-19 20:45 (UTC) (Link)
I agree with the aversion to crowds and the necessity to disconnecting from the corporate Holiday season. Some people enjoy the dysfunctional social normality of being in an excessively large crowd, standing in lines for hours, purchasing gifts that will most likely go back the day after. That's not me in the slightest. Nor is it Elizabeth. And I'm happy we can remind each other that no matter what happens, we are not required to live up to those unnatural standards.
ehowton at 2007-12-19 21:59 (UTC) (Link)
Ah! A kindred spirit. Live long, and prosper.
wardlejew at 2007-12-19 21:47 (UTC) (Link)
Within the bounds you are placed, you are what you choose to be.
ehowton at 2007-12-19 21:58 (UTC) (Link)
Thank you. Its taken me years to get to a place where I am finally comfortable.
irulan_amy at 2007-12-20 06:02 (UTC) (Link)
I'm not sure if it's ever really come up, but I am such a loner. My solitary tendencies reach really high levels this time of year. I flick into uber hermit mode, when all I really want to do is stay at home and watch movies. Don't make me go get groceries and gods don't make me go to the mall.

I do enjoy the bask of my Christmas tree at home though...
photogoot at 2007-12-20 06:49 (UTC) (Link)
Secretly I am a disappointed the rule of social norms dictate a Christmas tree not be displayed at home a bit longer. I am not talking anything freakish, but I too enjoy the glow of my tree during the cold dark days of the winter months.

That said I find the trees being up at my local mall in late August this year to be a whorish display of consumerism.

BTW, you were correct about the BSG release dates. This wait is becoming torturous.... I missed all of season three catching up with season 2.0 & 2.5. Poor me.
photogoot at 2007-12-20 06:41 (UTC) (Link)
"mobs of ambulatory meat"
You are my hero.

Frankly I think you have mellowed concerning this time of year. Back in the day you were a militant on the subject.

I can not imagine you being accused of being an emotionless robot. And for the record I am not confusing emoting with expressing emotion.

I don't know why I am up so late....

ehowton at 2007-12-20 06:49 (UTC) (Link)
...mobs of ambulatory meat...
That seems to be everyone's favorite, at least via AIM & my cross-post to xanga. I'm glad you like it. AM I WRONG?

Remember going to the mall in Virginia when your mother came to visit - the day before Christmas!</> Ugh. Yeah, I can see where I used to be a little more high-strung.

I don't know why you're up so late either. My late hour can probably be explained by the ingestion of a Monster Java early this morning.

texas_tangent at 2007-12-20 16:40 (UTC) (Link)
"You may be an undigested bit of beef, a blot of mustard, a crumb of cheese, a fragment of underdone potato. There's more of gravy than of grave about you, whatever you are!" Charles Dickens

I know what you are saying. I'm behind you one hundred percent.

ehowton at 2007-12-20 16:48 (UTC) (Link)
That quote ma'am, is in a word, perfect!

I know I'm going to enjoy the solitude this holiday season brings. But then you know me...that doesn't necessarily mean I'll stop posting ;)
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ehowton at 2007-12-20 18:36 (UTC) (Link)
My laserdisc player (Pioneer model CLD-900, circa 1984) gave up the ghost, and I have yet to replace it.

Edited at 2007-12-20 06:36 pm (UTC)
Tomas Gallucci
schpydurx at 2007-12-20 19:50 (UTC) (Link)
Let me rephrase: I found this post very unreadble and boring. I get that you don't do Christmas. That's cool. But your last paragraph read like Moby Dick, the most fucking boring read in the English language closely followed by Ben Hur.

I'm sorry. I like you and all I really do. But these past two post are boring. Please return to your usual, witty, entertaining posts.

Thank you.
ehowton at 2007-12-20 19:54 (UTC) (Link)
I appreciate your admittance that you're ambulatory meat. You want something you can understand?

snapper521 at 2007-12-22 02:17 (UTC) (Link)
I find it very difficult to play long with the holiday cheer... with the exception being to a scattered few who I care about enough to be excited about it. However... I dont like the commercialization of it. Or the expectations... its like instead of wanting to give; it is now expected! :-| Annoyance...

Anyway... either way I wish you and your family a very happy holiday season.
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