March 29th, 2011


Locked In

Chasing the River

Sometimes we find ourselves so far down a path we no longer wish to travel, that changing course seems an impossible endeavor. That if we'd just turned back earlier, or pursued a different course of action sometime back...that the very thing which keeps us on a track we no longer wish to be on is the time already spent on it. Does that seem right to you?

Sure some people fear the "unknown" that change would bring while others fear change itself, but I'm speaking specifically of those who stay because they always have, those who are, for lack of a better term, "comfortable" with the devil they know, even though they're on a path undesired. What is it about the length of time which makes change appear so difficult? The future so permanent?

But we're not locked in. We can, of our own volition, make positive changes which will reap us benefits we can't even comprehend once we find the courage to step out of our comfort zone. How is that done?

Compartmentalization & the Balance between Awareness vs. Worry

I'm not a perfect being - none of us are - though there are those of us who feel we're closer than others. What sets us apart? The ability to be aware of a situation or situations, and not worry about it. Worry is a soul-eating disorder which was created by Satan to give his fallen angels dominion over us. If we destroy ourselves, its less work on him - don't think that running an entire underworld isn't without its logistical challenges to overcome.

But seriously, if you can acknowledge your awareness, then set the issue aside until it requires being dealt with immediately, or placing it on the back-burner of your mind for lower-priority processing, when the time comes to deal with it you'll be plenty prepared. This is different than worry insofar as the energy expended on it is almost nil, and perhaps more importantly, it does not distract you from your primary tasks.

So how do we manage to accomplish this? Well, for those not used to this lifestyle, very, very slowly at first, and not without a little trepidation! But once you see that you can do it, the next one becomes easier, and the one after that and so on and so forth. An entire life-changing event because you were not pleased with what you were doing. Congratulations!


So when you find yourself in the left-hand lane of US Highway 75 (Central Expressway) and you don't know how you got there, or why you're there, but as long as you can remember you've just always been there - and I know you're not comfortable there - I can tell these things; blindly carrying on as if you deserved the privilege or had some right - do the right thing and MOVE THE FUCK OVER. I've given you tremendous responsibility here for your own actions and to prove your own worth on this planet amongst your peers, your friends. I love you like Christ loves you - I don't necessarily want to know you, or ever speak to you, but I love you in that I wish no real harm to come to you. Just...move out of the left-hand lane.

I think you're ready.
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