June 9th, 2013

eye, spectrum

Nihilistic Reactionism

Anger short circuits the neural pathways used in thinking, so everything automatically gets simplified in your mind, becomes either black or white; and as everyone knows, the world is hardly ever black or white.*

I am accused of "not caring" quite a bit. Awkwardly one person I know wants me to get "angry" and have an emotional reaction to "prove" that I care - so my observations may be a bit skewed to some people. I suppose that if one gently walks the paths of the mind and carefully considers the fascinating differences (or even understands that there are differences) between what one thinks, and how one feels, that would make sense to most people. Unless under duress - when something like the above would really be important - then all bets are off. FIGHT OR FLIGHT is a layman's term for a physiological survival response, its not an excuse for bad behavior.

I recently attended a class in which emotional control and mindfullness were paramount in the discussion. I tried to keep my jaw from dropping when an overwhelming majority admitted they were incapable of controlling (what was essentially their) rage nor could they stop themselves from doing so in any number of repeatable situations. I am unsure I would give anyone that level of control over my emotions. These are they type of people I fear. Why?

Imagine in a conversation someone is ignorant of a piece of information - what is their default reaction going to be? Imagine having a pleasant exchange, when suddenly there is a misunderstanding - what is their default reaction going to be? I have started putting into an entirely different category those who express rage as a default reaction for something they don't understand. Anger is essential for survival, but disagreement with a point of view is hardly a survival issue, nor an acceptable opening for rage.

This is where I've toyed with something I can only think to call nihilistic reactionism. Its not that I don't care - I do - probably far more than most. I simply don't react externally - and only a fool would believe (there's that word again) the two mutually exclusive. What a silly world where people believe things based on emotional reactions rather than their words and deeds! And there's a name for that.

Introducing my newest hierarchical progression model: