Here lately I've had a new recurring theme to my dreams - and frankly, it frightens me. I'm in my car, and for whatever reason, decide to start driving backwards. This is fine until the brakes don't work, and I cannot stop. I'm frantically trying to steer (not always effectively, as the car will often not respond to the wheel being turned) as I jump between attempting to drive via the rear-view mirror, and turning around to look out the back glass.
I have had this dream multiple times over the last several months, and according to The Element Encyclopedia of 20,000 Dreams there are multiple items at play here (bold words occur in the text of the book):
All vehicles symbolize a means for experience or the progress you are making in life...Your dreaming mind may be urging you to slow down - particularly if brakes feature in the dream. If the pedals were not working properly do you need more energy to make further progress in waking life? Car mirrors are clear symbols of looking at the past and seeing the effect of past events on your possible plans for the future and if you are reversing your car you may suffer from a sense of not getting anywhere.
Out of this I have to assume that I'm going nowhere, fast. Or at least that's how my unconscious mind feels, and let's face it, I can almost always find a direct correlation between it and my conscious mind, and here lately, that wouldn't be much of a stretch.
But it gets weirder!
Last night there was a twist - I was driving a motherfucking school bus. In the bus were only my wife and two children, and I was driving them to school. But I got stuck in traffic at a light so I put the bus in reverse and started backing up - you know what happens next of course - the brakes wouldn't work and I hit a police car. I finally made it to school but got lost walking the children through the maze-like hallways. And what this means (again according to the book) seems to fall lock-step with truth to the point its eerie:
If you are driving the bus this suggests a willingness to guide others. Pay attention to the people you are driving as this might suggest your feelings of responsibility toward them. If you are stuck in a dream traffic jam this reflects your frustrations in life whilst a police car will signify the need for discipline in life. School buildings symbolize lessons to be learned, that more growth is required and entering a labyrinth represents rapid change and a journey toward self-discovery.
Yep. That's me. Guiding my family as I work to re-discover myself completely frustrated and without discipline, and getting absolutely nowhere.
Speeding in reverse.