Romanticizing Tobacco

Posted on 2014.09.22 at 00:00
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Excepting once a year when I bum a chew from my neighbor on the 4th of July, I haven't chewed tobacco in approximately 18-months (I don't really keep track of the years I do and do not chew). I've been sucking on nicotine lozenges since February, but here recently have been remembering the rush only tobacco can provide, as well as all the other side effects (both good and bad) of chewing processed tobacco to the point I was entirely dissatisfied with anything else. It consumed me.

Friday, I bought a can.

It was horrible. I figured I'd keep at it to make sure, but even after two days and the entire can, I decided I wanted no more. All I had done was romanticize what I'd missed - it was all in my head - none of it was real.

Now I'm thinking I don't even need the lozenges anymore either.

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michelle1963 at 2014-09-22 12:09 (UTC) (Link)

Interesting observation and empirical test! I sometimes think the thing we ingested, imbibed, or habits we once had were perfect for a particular moment and time, but then later do not apply. Or the purpose once served is something we now achieve in other ways.

Perhaps stress levels have changed, or what we want from life is different, or....

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ehowton at 2014-09-22 16:57 (UTC) (Link)

Perhaps.

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